tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.comments2013-07-03T21:01:46.161-06:00Many Apples A DayLigiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18421627214001434421noreply@blogger.comBlogger40125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-5170583588858907792013-07-03T21:01:46.161-06:002013-07-03T21:01:46.161-06:00Wow! What a trial! I surprised you had more kids a...Wow! What a trial! I surprised you had more kids after how hard everything was with Orion! It obviously led you down a different path. God works in mysterious ways. I'm in the middle of "Dr. Mom" trying to figure out Jeremy's eczema and food sensitivities. Some things have been figured out yet other things are still unclear. We've found a holistic doctor we like so we'll see how it goes. We've only seen him once. This story leaves me with so many questions about your journey to where you are now!Shelleyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15181449769725293139noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-7700768022411450092013-07-03T16:21:00.860-06:002013-07-03T16:21:00.860-06:00That was horrifying but beautiful! I had no idea y...That was horrifying but beautiful! I had no idea you had it this bad! It is so inspiring!! Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03375354188726597950noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-26328398012098460422013-06-09T22:35:56.839-06:002013-06-09T22:35:56.839-06:00Ligia,I really appreciate your honesty about your ...Ligia,I really appreciate your honesty about your experience. After my second I had postpartum quite badly. I knew things weren't right, but it took my mom finally telling me that I needed to get help (she has suffered with depression as well) before I realized just how bad things had gotten. My baby was 4 months old at that time and looking back I really don't know how we all made it. I couldn't believe how angry and anxious I felt all the time. I had thoughts that terrify me and sadden me. I felt like at any moment I could snap and I was truly worried. That was the point that I finally called my mom and she had to tell me that I had postpartum. I wish the Drs involved in my care had been more forthcoming and informative. Anyway, I am so sorry you have had to go through this and I empathize. Conniehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09176362621143272162noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-64937626792022755142013-06-02T19:12:43.303-06:002013-06-02T19:12:43.303-06:00 Love berries. Love. Love berries. Love.Aprilhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10105429729952920141noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-2539349647015313752013-06-01T08:35:44.468-06:002013-06-01T08:35:44.468-06:00Lamentations 3:49-51 – The tears stream from my ey...Lamentations 3:49-51 – The tears stream from my eyes, an artesian well of tears, until You, God, look down from on high. You look and see my tears. You listened when I called out, ‘Don’t shut your ears! Get me out of here! Save me! You came close when I called out. You said, ‘It’s going to be all right.’ “You took my side, Master – You brought me back to life!<br /><br />heatheybabyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09140251915291123023noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-10751247077672397902013-05-26T23:15:51.586-06:002013-05-26T23:15:51.586-06:00Continued..... Unlike Ligia, I cannot state that ...Continued..... Unlike Ligia, I cannot state that depression can be overcome by the lifestyles that we choose. Perhaps some people's can, or perhaps some people's can at some points in their life, but not in others. Or perhaps some people will always need direct intervention through medication or therapy or both. Depression is an illness, often a chronic illness, as real as cancer or any other illness. It has varying types and varying degrees and varying fluctuations. It is an imbalance of chemicals in the brain. Another of its traps is that it makes people think that because it is evaluated by more subjective means than most illnesses that somehow it is less real. The final trap I want to talk about is the thinking that if we are strong enough, we can get through it. This may be true. . . but at what cost? What and who else in your life suffers in some way along with you because you just want to endure and push through? Couldn't your quality of life be improved if you are willing to seek help in one form or another? Wouldn't you at least like to try and find out? Sometimes taking that initial step toward trying to get help, to help yourself, requires an even bigger surge of strength than continuing down your lone path of endurance. And, as Ligia mentioned, it also requires shoving aside some pride. I'll wrap up now by mentioning that even once you get help, and are largely better, there will still be those days, those times, when you feel it coming back on. During those times I try to cling, to hold fast to those things most important in my life: to the Lord and the Gospel, to my love for my family and others. That helps sustain me.Ligiahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18421627214001434421noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-37217887249023688002013-05-26T23:14:39.692-06:002013-05-26T23:14:39.692-06:00A friend shared this with me and wasn't wantin...A friend shared this with me and wasn't wanting to post this here but has allowed me permission to share here in response to this post. I found it touching:<br /><br />Ligia, thank you for sharing your story. I, too, have suffered from postpartum depression with all of my children. When my first was born, there was so much stress from the experience and so much change so fast, I think I just mostly figured what I was going through was not really out of the ordinary and I just needed time to adjust. Perhaps this was partly true, but it is also a trap of depression. There was a point where I realized things were bad, and had read that if you felt depressed for more than two weeks straight, you should seek medical help, so I decided to give it two weeks to see. However, I began timing my two weeks at the point I felt it was 'bad' or 'worse' and not at the point when it had actually begun at all. Before (shortly before) the two weeks had passed, I began feeling somewhat better, so I didn't seek help. Things were okay, but as I look back now, I realize that I probably could have avoided some of that suffering if I had been more forthcoming about what I was experiencing. And I started crying while reading your story, in part because I was empathizing with you and in part because I was trying to remember if you were still living in the Provo area after I had my baby in June 2007 and lamenting the fact that if you were, how we could have been there for each other. I had moved to Payson about two weeks prior to her birth (which I would now not recommend moving away from established connections at such a time if it can be avoided). But depression also traps us by making us not want to reach out, even to friends and family (especially if we don't know that they have had similar struggles). After my second child was born, I remember fixing dinner one night and having a strong urge to just lower my arm to the edge of the skillet and let it get burned. I recounted this to my mom a while later and she was saddened that I disliked so much or thought so little of myself that I would want to do that. That was not the case, though. Quite the opposite actually. I really think it was self-preservation, or at least mental preservation that made the burning seem so appealing at the time. I think it was the desire to be able to focus on a pain that would make sense instead of the confusing pain of my mind that was encompassing me. I was able to resist, and I quickly got on the treadmill and was able to get past the urge that I had felt, but once I got off of it, I could definitely feel the 'regular' depression was still very much there. My second child was born using different doctors, in a different state, than the first. They were much more proactive in encouraging me to and then insisting that I had help. I began taking medication and saw a therapist a few times. It turned out that I didn't really need the therapy; the medication was the main help. Ligiahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18421627214001434421noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-44813592219840876482013-05-26T19:51:49.992-06:002013-05-26T19:51:49.992-06:00I haven't had any children so I'm not sure...I haven't had any children so I'm not sure if I will deal with postpartum depression or not BUT I was extremely depressed for a couple of years as a teenager. I often entertained suicidal thoughts. It took a couple years to get out of that fog. Interestingly, I've felt the feelings of depression come on since then and I recognize them early on and can swiftly quelch them now.<br /><br />But I had a friend that recently told me she was extremely depressed after having her first baby. She finally realized what made her slip into it was being left alone with no one to talk to. After that she invited her Mom to stay a month with her following her other childrens' births. She never experience postpartum depression again. We need each other. We need friends. "We must love one another or die." W.H. Auden.<br /><br />Emilyemilyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10419832215613751647noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-4919615721433612362013-05-23T19:41:01.956-06:002013-05-23T19:41:01.956-06:00Great intro Lig!Great intro Lig!susan radhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07309642290725700958noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-40480733980891598232012-12-04T21:28:38.460-07:002012-12-04T21:28:38.460-07:00I'm so trying this!! :)I'm so trying this!! :)Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10144073101332007051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-61749033711000924792012-11-07T21:14:50.087-07:002012-11-07T21:14:50.087-07:00I just saw this...I hope they turn out ok :) I just saw this...I hope they turn out ok :) Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10144073101332007051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-17487495735806647442011-09-20T21:35:41.115-06:002011-09-20T21:35:41.115-06:00I've been wanting that recipe. I'm gonna ...I've been wanting that recipe. I'm gonna make these tomorrow for the girls I visit. Thanks for posting it.Ligiahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18421627214001434421noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-73270587605012215832011-09-20T21:34:21.326-06:002011-09-20T21:34:21.326-06:00I wonder if that would work with collards too. I ...I wonder if that would work with collards too. I have tons to use from my garden. I'm excited to try this.Ligiahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18421627214001434421noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-41618869056245736622011-08-25T09:15:40.245-06:002011-08-25T09:15:40.245-06:00looks very good.looks very good.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-8428303331482170432011-08-23T16:33:30.540-06:002011-08-23T16:33:30.540-06:00OH MY Kira! If I wasn't on a sugar fast this ...OH MY Kira! If I wasn't on a sugar fast this week I would be on top of this. I'll have to make this when I finish my fast. What a yummy looking treat.Ligiahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18421627214001434421noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-92028370717447949212011-02-24T18:27:51.473-07:002011-02-24T18:27:51.473-07:00yeah i need to post some pictures for this recipe....yeah i need to post some pictures for this recipe...i think i can find some online that resemble what i did.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10144073101332007051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-39447082367265649962011-02-21T08:34:48.799-07:002011-02-21T08:34:48.799-07:00Me again. I just thought I'd share that I used...Me again. I just thought I'd share that I used this as a pancake "syrup" today and quite enjoyed it.Aprilhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10105429729952920141noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-28419224647304228192011-02-20T00:23:23.784-07:002011-02-20T00:23:23.784-07:00That's a clever way to make pasta. I think yo...That's a clever way to make pasta. I think you might need to show me this because I'm not sure I'm doing it right.Ligiahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18421627214001434421noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-60112526323779188112011-02-20T00:20:30.244-07:002011-02-20T00:20:30.244-07:00Darn, I have everything for this minus the basil. ...Darn, I have everything for this minus the basil. I need to plant some basil this summer. Can't wait to try it.Ligiahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18421627214001434421noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-65185022899055972302011-02-19T22:09:20.883-07:002011-02-19T22:09:20.883-07:00We had this for breakfast today! I used cashews, a...We had this for breakfast today! I used cashews, and it was really good. It was not as thick as I thought it would be, but I guess I could make it thicker by doing less water if I wanted. We liked it how it was anyway. It was great with some of our raw granola.<br />I thought we'd have enough left for breakfast tomorrow, but my brother came to visit and he had a bunch, so there's just a bit left. Thanks!Aprilhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10105429729952920141noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-1974241483650244842011-02-18T09:40:19.631-07:002011-02-18T09:40:19.631-07:00Wahoo! We love this dressing. Elliot requests it s...Wahoo! We love this dressing. Elliot requests it so I'm glad to have an actual recipe! Thanks.Aprilhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10105429729952920141noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-84870863670521644352010-12-11T14:06:54.797-07:002010-12-11T14:06:54.797-07:00Thanks for posting this! As soon as I can I am goi...Thanks for posting this! As soon as I can I am going to try it!Shayla Taylorhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02496615196430976117noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-11010227239739290952010-12-07T16:56:37.808-07:002010-12-07T16:56:37.808-07:00MM. Want to try this!MM. Want to try this!Aprilhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10105429729952920141noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-47481285498542289272010-12-06T10:04:27.209-07:002010-12-06T10:04:27.209-07:00Looks good. I'd like to try collards this way....Looks good. I'd like to try collards this way. I've had them in smoothies and they are strong, peppery flavored greens...But this looks like it would be good. Thanks!Aprilhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10105429729952920141noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6665317956079394059.post-82096761212717304922010-03-17T21:41:32.605-06:002010-03-17T21:41:32.605-06:00I made it! It was yummy, but I must admit, I didn&...I made it! It was yummy, but I must admit, I didn't think it tasted much like cheesecake. My sister deemed it a "yogurt" pie. Perhaps I did something wrong...but either way, it was good.Aprilhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10105429729952920141noreply@blogger.com